I miss tumblr.
So I’ll sorta post right now. Today, I was thinking about life and how it zoomed by. One year.. and SO much has happened. One year ago, I was someone who was different, a girl who was going through so much and a girl who didn’t know what to do 90 percent of the time. I was so lost, not going to lie.. but I’m still pretty lost now. My routine days are all catching up to me. So much to do in so little time and I feel like everyday, I continue to just be repetative. Same faces, same agenda, same thoughts. I feel like I’m not accomplishing anything, yet if I really look at the big picture.. I’m sort of doing alot right now. I have so much going on such as school, work and family that I don’t have time to think about myself. I don’t have time for myself. I feel like just having a mental breakdown for one day. A day to just enjoy my surroundings and be with nature. I want to just go to the highest view somewhere and sit there, reminisce for a bit and just hear the silence of the Earth.
When it comes to talking about you, I feel like I’m going to get no where. I don’t even know if I should continue how we are. You freakin make me laugh at the weirdest things, yet I think you’re just sort of leaving me in the air. I’m your friend, and you know I’m always going to be there.. but I know deep down in the back of my head and heart that things need to change or they’ll just get worst. It’s crazy how close we are though. Thank you for being a part of my everyday life.
This is for you, the one I think about on occasion. You’re crazy haha. You still make me smile and I know we have had our differences, yet you’re a great person. I have so much to say to you, but not enough words haha. Thanks for everything. I miss you, I wish we could still be close, yet I know this is how close we can be.
To you, my baby girl. The one that I never get to talk to anymore, and the one I truly want to apologize to. I hope when you read this you realize it’s for you. I’m sorry ate hasn’t been there at all for months now. I know it’s not the same yet I do miss you. So much has been going on in my life and not having a phone sucks. I miss talking to you and you venting to me. I honestly miss you. I love you unconditionally and I hope one day I can fix it between us. Right now though wouldn’t be a good time. I promise you though bebs, you mean so much to me. Ate’s always here if you need anything.
